My biggest journey yet

Now that I’m back in action in the blogosphere, I thought I would answer some questions and share some stories of what my pregnancy, labor/delivery, and recovery were like, how we decided on a name, and anything else that might come up in my crazy, baby scattered brain!

My pregnancy: I always feel guilty for some reason when people ask how my pregnancy went. I don’t know why I feel guilty; I think it’s because I know some women have horrible experiences and I feel bad that mine was far, far, far, far, did I mention far from it?! It was easy. There I said it. I never had any morning sickness, never had any heartburn, never really had any major symptoms or complications (thankfully!). Once I found out I was pregnant, I decided that I wanted to share my pregnancy journey with close family and friends. So I created a separate blog that I only shared with a small group of people. And recently I realized that by keeping it a private thing, I wasn’t being honest to this blog. This blog is to share my life and my pregnancy was definitely a major part of that. (Here’s the link if you want to bore yourself with the week by week pregnancy details.) Although my pregnancy went by very fast, the last 2 months seemed to drag by. I think the novelty of being pregnant had worn its welcome, I was sick of feeling like the good year blimp, and just very ready to meet my baby. My Mom said that her pregnancy’s were all very similar to mine, so I guess I can thank her for that!

Very 9 months pregnant here
Had Kolsen less than 48 hours after this picture was taken!

Labor/Delivery: {Disclaimer: I won’t be going into too much detail here, so no need to grab the barf bag or anything} My labor and delivery was, dare I say it again, easy. Less than 48 hours before I had Kolsen, I was a bridesmaid in my friend, Mollie’s, wedding. I honestly think that’s what helped kick start my labor. Taking pictures outside for 2 hours in 97 degree weather must be the trick! I woke up Sunday feeling like it was any other day – huge. I started to feel random contractions in the early afternoon. I figured they were Braxton Hick’s contractions (false labor contractions) and so I didn’t think anything of it. Around dinner time, the contractions started to get stronger, but at this point they were very inconsistent. After dinner, Jake and I went on an extra long walk. I was told that walking doesn’t necessarily start contractions, but if you’re already having them then it could help the labor process. So I thought, “what the heck?! It’s worth a shot.” When it was time to go to bed, I couldn’t sleep so I stayed up an extra hour. By this time, my contractions were more frequent, but in my mind I just didn’t think that this would be happening yet. 11:00pm I decided that I would try to fall asleep. Over the next 2-3 hours I woke up 2-3 times because the contractions were hurting pretty badly. (They felt like really, really bad period cramps.) At 2:00am, I started counting contractions for an hour. They were anywhere from 3-5 minutes apart, each lasting 1-1:30 minutes. At 3:00am, I called the hospital to see if I should come in or not. The nurse told me to try taking a bath to see if the contractions went away. Another hour later and a bath (I HATE baths by the way), the contractions were the same. We went to the hospital at 4:30am and I was admitted at about 6:00am. I received an epidural at about 9:30am as I was progressing at about 1cm/hour and I didn’t want to miss my window of opportunity. By this time I was about 6 cm dilated and once I got the epidural I basically hung out for the next 4.5 hours until I had to push. I pushed for about 15 minutes and then Kolsen graced us with his presence. I don’t regret getting the epidural at all. I would do it the exact same way if I were to do it again. I think it did slow down the process, but I was okay with that. I was able to save what energy I had from lack of sleep. Having Kolsen placed on my chest was one of the best feelings I’ve ever felt. It’s still hard to describe it because I feel like there just aren’t the perfect words to explain it. I was flooded with overwhelming emotions of happiness, relief that everything went well, love, and just pure joy. It’s an amazing experience and I am so glad that it’s something that Jake and I can share forever.

Our first picture together….*tears of overwhelming happiness*
First family photo
Jake and Kolsen’s first picture together

Recovery: Not gonna lie, the recovery sucks. I’m so thankful I didn’t have to have a c-section. Ladies that have had one, kudos to you. I can’t imagine. The first two weeks were probably the hardest. Life is hard adjusting to all of the changes. Emotionally, I felt like I was all over the place. Physically, I didn’t have a baby in my belly anymore, but your body still isn’t “yours.” Mentally, I was drained. I didn’t know what day of the week it was or what had happened in the last hour. I was all over the place. Luckily for me, I was able to drop a large portion of my baby weight within the first two weeks (30 lbs in 2 weeks!..I gained 36 lbs total). Wish I could make a diet pill for that gave results like that, I’d be rich! 🙂 I contribute my overall sense of well being to that weight loss as maybe shallow as that might sound. It just made me feel more like myself and I had been longing for that for so long. I’m now actually under my pre-pregnancy weight, so that’s prettttty awesome! 🙂 It also helped that at about that time, Kolsen started to sleep a little more at night. I love my sleep and it’s crazy what lack of sleep can do to a person. Those first few weeks were hard. As soon as I got up in the morning, I would dread the upcoming night consumed with thoughts of my lack of sleep and the amount of time I would be up that night. My Mom was a life saver for those first two weeks. She was literally over every afternoon. I was able to sleep, shower, clean, run to Target. It was the little things that made me feel more like myself. Jake’s mom helped a ton as well with making us dinners and treats. I am so thankful that we both had family close to us. 8 weeks later and those first few weeks now seem like they were a lifetime ago. There were many times where I had listen to my body and stop pushing myself so hard to get back to “normal”. I had to realize that I wasn’t going to feel better overnight and it would take time. My body had just gone through a huge thing – I made another human being!! – it would all come together in time. Even if it wasn’t as fast as I wanted, I needed to take it easy.

Right before we left the hospital
Going home picture!

What’s in a name? Kolsen Jakob Overby. “Jakob” should be pretty obvious as to where we got it. Jake’s family has a thing for K’s and so I always knew we would somehow incorporate that into our baby’s name. We had always liked the name Kole, but there was a part of me that wanted something a little more unique. In the 4th grade, there was another “Amy” in my class and I hated having to be “Amy H”, I hated that there was another Amy in my class. I can only imagine how Jake felt with an even more popular name. So I was looking online one day and Kolsen came up as a variation of Kole and I was kind of hooked from there. There are quite a few different spellings out there, but this one just seemed to work for us.  When I first brought up the name to Jake, he initially wasn’t a huge fan. He didn’t hate it, but I was a little disappointed that he didn’t like it as much as I did. It got put on our short list of maybes. A few months later and only a couple of weeks before Kolsen was born, we were having a conversation on gchat  and I threw it out there again. Hook, line and sinker! We had ourselves a winner!! I was thrilled that Jake was on board and it didn’t take any convincing. It just seemed to fit. It was unique and I figured the chances were slim for there to ever be another Kolsen in his classes and yet it wasn’t too crazy or made up. I’m glad we kept his name a secret, I wasn’t really wanting too many opinions. We liked it, it’s just as perfect as he is, and I am so happy that we stuck with something that we liked. Here are some other names we had considered: Palmer Jakob (Palmer is after Jake’s great uncle), Abram Kristian, Owen Jakob, there were more but I can’t remember. Funny how once we decided, the other ones were so quickly forgotten.

  • Kolsen means “having dark features” or “people of victory”
  • One of the criteria that Jake wanted with a name is for it to be Norwegian. Kolsen isn’t, but Kol is. Even though we don’t call him Kol (although that may become a nickname in the future…we want him to learn and recognize Kolsen first), Jake approved.  Kolsen ended up meeting both of our requirements 🙂

Before you even ask, “When are you going to have the next one?”Not any time soon 🙂

THANK YOU to everyone who has been there supporting us along this way. We appreciate it more than you may ever know. Blessed, thankful, happy, loved – the list goes on and on! When I think about Kolsen and the future, I get excited to share it with you. ❤

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Kolsen Jakob

I can’t believe it’s been two months since I’ve posted anything! Jeesh! I’d say I’m sorry but I’m really not. You see, I’ve been trying to soak up every minute with my baby, so I would never take that back. 🙂

I’d like to officially introduce you to the newest man in my life…

Being that I haven’t updated in so long, here’s a little recap on this handsome little devil.

2 Weeks: 10.0 lbs / 22 inches

5 Weeks: 13 lbs / 24 inches

8 Weeks: 14.2 lbs / 25.5 inches

  • Sleep Habits: Gets a bath between 9-9:30 every night. Gets up once during the night usually between 3-5am, eats and then goes straight back to sleep. We’ve had a couple of nights where he’ll sleep for 7-8.5 hours – hopefully those become more the norm. He is still sleeping in our room in our co-sleeper bassinet. He’s growing so fast that he will probably outgrow that quite soon. We are able to put him down for naps while he is still awake, but drowsy and he’ll put himself to sleep. Another thing that I hope continues to work in the future.
  • Eating Habits: Kolsen has no problem in this department 🙂 He eats anywhere from about 22-30 ounces a day. He is fed on demand which usually works out to be right before or after he naps. Instead of a few large feedings during the day, he eats smaller ones.
  • Loves: Kicking, punching, and “talking”. I think he’s starting to hear and recognize his own voice, so it’s fun to see him interact with us when we talk to him. He is a very active baby, but he is also content too. He is perfectly happy (and sometimes would prefer) to just lay down under his play gym and move around rather than being held all of the time. He loves sticking his tongue out, so if you do that to him, he tries to replicate it. He loves sucking on his fist…yep, you read that right. Not a finger or thumb, but his entire fist. I don’t know if he loves bath time, but he certainly doesn’t hate it. He’s very content during that time; just hanging out, relaxing. He’s an awesome car rider! Usually falls asleep within minutes or just peacefully looks out the windows. He loves watching tv (limited of course). If we’re at a restaurant or something, his eyes are glued on it. Same with lights or fans on the ceiling, just fascinated with them.
  • Hates: Waiting for his bottles to be heated up. Being held when he wants to play. Laying in his boppy – he used to love it, but not a fan anymore.

Other things to note:

  • He now recognizes me and Jake – we get a big gummy smile that just melts my heart. The other day, my grandma Sako was over and he really seemed to like her – full of smiles and “talking” a lot to her. Priceless. Perma smile on this Momma’s face 🙂
  • Working on head control. Doesn’t seem to love tummy time, but if you hold him upright, all he wants to do is look around and hold his head up. We’ll get there!
  • Henry is now getting protective of him which is a good and bad thing. Good because he likes Kolsen, bad because it’s even towards Jake and I at times. That first week we were home with Kolsen, Henry stopped eating. My Mom and Jake would get on the floor with him and try to hand feed him and he didn’t even want that. So going from that to protective – we’ve come a long way in 2 months.

Here are some pictures from over the past month:

 

I just can’t get enough of him ❤

Dear Sweet Little Boy

Dear Sweet Little Boy,

I’ve been meaning to write this for quite some time. To let you know one day, how much Mommy and Daddy love you already, how we would do anything for you, how we want nothing but the best for you, and how excited we are that you are going to be ours. I don’t think there are enough ways to say that we love you. Or enough hours in a day that I think about how much we can’t wait to hold you, kiss you, snuggle you. I never knew the amount of love and joy someone I’ve never met could bring to my life. You have changed my life forever…and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

The months leading up to your arrival have been filled with smiles, laughter, fear, and much anticipation. It might sound a little selfish, but I cherish this time that I have you all to myself. To be with you all day, to feel your every movement, to feel every hiccup. Even though I’m going to miss this time, I can’t wait to experience everything else life has in store for you. And I will be right there with you through it all.

This world can be crazy, scary, and beautiful all at the same time and we want you to be able to experience it as much as you can. Saying that, there are some things we want you to know.

 

Have faith. 

Be kind. Be generous. Be loving. Be helpful.

We are your #1 fans and biggest supporters.

Believe in yourself.  

It’s okay to lose. Pick yourself up and keep trying to be your best. 

Be passionate about something.

Show emotion and say how you feel.

Know that it’s okay to ask for help.

Dance. {If you’re anything like your Dad, this won’t be difficult for you.}

Read.

Be creative. 

Have integrity, determination, and compassion.

Always be polite and have good manners.

Treat others how you would like to be treated.

Being different is not a bad thing. {How boring would life be if everyone were the same.}

Love full heartedly. 

Play outside. {The best stories and memories don’t come from a television screen.} 

Laugh and smile.

Be yourself.

 

I look forward to holding you, hugging you, kissing you.

I look forward to your belly laughs and chubby cheeks.

I look forward to your little fingers and toesies.

I look forward to our time alone as a little family.

I look forward to sharing you with the world.

I look forward to being your Mommy.

 

Please cut us a little slack – we are first timers at this whole parenting thing. We’ll be learning together and I can promise you that we will give you nothing but our best. You have filled our lives with a new sense of love that cannot be measured.  You are a blessing. We’re ready to meet you sweet little boy, so take your time and come when you’re ready, but feel free to see us soon 🙂

We love you forever and for always.

– Mommy